What? A trip to New York? (12/17/17)
Hello! Haven’t been in for a bit so thought I would say hello and give a quick update! As you probably know I started a new treatment on the 4th. It had me down for about 4 days, and then I gradually got better with each day❤This chemo is a little tricky as it causes me to be sensitive to cold. I can’t touch, eat, breathe or drink anything cold! This is hard for several reasons!! The effects last around 9 days for me 😣 So needless to say, I have been getting all the cold stuff I can for the last few days!!
I have chemo bright and early in the morning after I see the doctor. My first infusion was 8 hrs because they are trying to keep me from having an allergic reaction like I had last time I was on this regimen. At about day 4 I would get hives….So far I haven’t had any so let’s hope this continues!! The doctor said with each treatment they would try to shorten it so i wouldn’t have to be there so long. I also have been having to go home with a 46hr pump. I decided after my last treatment that I no longer want the pump. Long story short, the reason is I’ve had to do this for a year and a half…being connected with a needle in your chest and a short tube with a pump drives ya a little crazy…they have a pill version of this chemo that they are going to put me on instead. I will find out how that all works tomorrow.
So once I got over my chemo symptoms I have been feeling pretty good! My hair is slowly but surely growing😍 (but it is crazy looking lol) I’ve been able to go on a field trip with my little one which I was thrilled about!! Gosh you don’t realize what you take for granted until you can’t do it anymore! On the eve of chemo I can’t sleep, I’m a little snippy (Brad probably would say a LOT snippy) and just plain anxious… tonight I’m trying to practice what our church service was about today which is finding the peace in this hardship. I honestly do a pretty good job on most days except the night before treatment…So tonight I’m going to try to give it to God and be at peace ❤
Okay let’s switch gears….So I recently found out about my surprise New York trip a couple people have been working on….I am so blown away by this…what started this was after my last treatment didn’t work and my cancer had progressed, I felt this sense of urgency to check things off my bucket list as I may be running out of time… Brad and I discussed how 2018 is going to be a year where we do the tbings we have always wanted to do….With that said I had mentioned to someone that I have always wanted to go to New York and would love for Brad and I to do a weekend getaway there… (we’ve never left our kiddos 😣😭)well what I didn’t realize is secretly people were planning this for me. I actually have tears again as I’m typing this!! You guys this would not be possible without the generosity of lots of you! At Christmas time!!! I can’t begin to tell you how blessed I feel!! I want to say THANKYOU to everyone that helped make this possible!! A serious dream come true!! I can’t wait to go and share my experience with you!!! Whew so much emotion for me about this!!
2017 has been one for the books…not for good reasons…I’m going to do all that I can to make 2018 the best!!
Thankyou all for supporting me and believing in me to fight this relentless cancer….I’m staying positive and trying to remain strong and its because of all of you that I can keep smiling everyday because I feel your prayers and love❤
You all have a good night and hug your loved ones!! Until next time!!!
Love always xoxo
Jessica