Good evening! Warning im feeling wordy so this may be long…Reflecting on this past month and it has been crazy! I have had a few bumps in my path to fighting this thing but I’m back on track starting tomorrow! 4-5 hr chemo is tomorrow, so thankful to have my amazing hubby with me by my side during my treatments💙
Update..as I had posted a week or so ago I had a visit with the IU doctor just to get a second opinion again on my plan and he agreed with my current one they are just pre-treating with steroids hoping I won’t have a reaction like last time or worse…in this meeting we also discussed if I was at a point for any kind of surgery to remove any of the tumors. He basically said he didn’t think so at this time but he would take my case to the weekly meeting with surgeons just in case. Well I heard from him yesterday and just as he presumed they said no. Reason being at this point there would be no benefit since the cancer is in multiple locations. If we can get most of them go away, then yes it’s possible. Of course I just want them to go in there and get it all out but it doesn’t work that way.. so sticking to the plan!
As always I would again like to say thanks for the continued support I keep receiving.. I’m getting cards from old classmates all over the country, anonymous people leaving me money, people I know and don’t know showing their support by wearing shirts, sending me encouraging letters, books and facebook posts. I will be at a restaurant and someone will take care of the tab. I mean it is absolutely endless and amazing!! People recognize me and let me know they are praying for me and my family also putting me on their prayer list at church….it’s just so helpful and we are truly blessed!

I have to be honest..for many reasons this is all still so very overwhelming for me. Sometimes I don’t know the right thing to say when people ask me questions or I look around at a fundraising event or I’m out around town and I see people with shirts or bracelets supporting my journey and I think to myself “is this real?” I tell Brad all the time I dont feel worthy of receiving all of this, (I really struggle accepting it sometimes) and he’s like Jess you have stage 4 cancer, you are going to be on chemo the rest of your life, let people help you. I guess I’m still sometimes in some sort of denial.. Before all this I was just a mom, wife, daughter, granddaughter, sister, cousin, niece, aunt, coworker and friend. A woman doing a job that I loved and my world as I knew it completely stopped and changed forever. I’m still grieving that old life I had just 4 months ago.. I have days where I literally cry all day and days where I feel like I can conquer the world…. I just have to continue to trust that you all and God are going to get me and my precious family thru this…there’s no choice!
Alrighty sorry for the rambling, I know I repeat myself in posts! I’m definitely not a journalist! Lol
You all have sweet dreams💙
Love always!!!Xoxo
Jessica💙