Good morning 😊 This is probably the 1st day since my last post I’ve had the energy to post anything. The exhaustion I’m experiencing is indescribable. So that takes me into my update. 
For me my days consist of about 90%sleep. I’m not eating well, I’m not talking to anyone and I basically camp out in my bedroom. I’m trying to over come this, but I’m struggling. So if you call or text, chances are I’m sleeping and won’t respond right away.😕 With this happening I’m suffering from anxiety to go anywhere and just pure exhaustion plus not feeling well. 
I try to push myself at least 1 day of the 7 day week to get out for a little bit. The cold weather isnt helping either as my body takes forever to warm back up! So I talk myself in to curling up back in bed…
So it seems everyone is getting into the holiday spirit! I’m trying to however I have that life span my dr gave me looming over head. When I met with her she gave me 5 to 7 months. December is 5 months….I know God only knows when it’s time but I cant help having anxiety. We still haven’t told the girls this part of my journey, still trying to figure put how you tell your kids their mom is dying…. I’m not sure I will even be able to get the words out. I feel like I have so much to do before I go I get so overwhelmed. I have started my preplanning of my funeral services which makes me feel better as I’m taking one burden away from Brad. Other than that I’m home, in bed, not feeling well,trying to live the best I can. I get 1 visit a week from my hospice nurse and that’s about it. So sorry this isnt like my usual posts but I at least wanted you all to hear from me while I had the energy and hopefully I will can give you more info and a happier mood! Thanks as always for the cards and messages! They really do bring a smile to me and bring my spirits up!

Until next time 
Xoxoxoxo
Jessica