Good evening friends💜 Its been a couple weeks since I’ve chatted with you so thought I would stop in for a recap of the past 2 weeks.
Well the last two weeks have been rough. Our community lost a very wonderful person. She was a wonderful, strong, loving friend of mine. She was my rock through this cancer journey as she too was battling this beast. When we would talk and have our breakfast dates, it was so refreshing talking to someone in a very similar situation. We both just totally understood all the crazy thoughts and emotions that go through someone’s mind when facing a death sentence. I miss her terribly. Please if you could say an extra prayer for her beautiful family and friends💜 she will never be forgotten!
Tonight is “chemo eve” and usually that’s means anxiety, sadness, no sleep etc. Again like I’ve said before, I’m beyond thankful for modern medicine but when I’m feeling the side effects it’s more like poison. This treatment tomorrow will be the last one before my scan on the 27th. Based on all the pain I’m having, I’m more nervous than I’ve ever been.
With all the above I do trust God’s plan and know he is with me through all of this….but I’m human, cancer is evil and I’m not done living.
This past week which I call my good week was good! Sometimes I try to cram so much into those days I wear myself out lol.
Lastly I want to express how blessed I am to live in such a wonderful town, go to an amazing church, have a loving family and supportive friends💜there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about how blessed I am! I saw so many of you around town this week and got lots of hugs😍 my illness has taken away a lot from me but has given the reason to make the most of your days because we are on borrowed time. This week I took a country drive and opened the sunroof to feel the sun on my face. I took in several deep breathes and felt thankful to be alive. I also tried to slow down and create memorable moments due to one of my great fears is they won’t remember me and how much I loved them💔 I don’t want to be remembered for having cancer.
Alright I could go on and on so I will zip it!! Lol
Thanks as always for your continued support!
Love always xoxo
Jessica