I lost a friend (11/5/17)
Good evening friends
šĀ Its been a couple weeks since Iāve chatted with you so thought I would stop in for a recap of the past 2 weeks.
Well the last two weeks have been rough. Our community lost a very wonderful person. She was a wonderful, strong, loving friend of mine. She was my rock through this cancer journey as she too was battling this beast. When we would talk and have our breakfast dates, it was so refreshing talking to someone in a very similar situation. We both just totally understood all the crazy thoughts and emotions that go through someoneās mind when facing a death sentence. I miss her terribly. Please if you could say an extra prayer for her beautiful family and friendsšĀ she will never be forgotten!
Tonight is āchemo eveā and usually thatās means anxiety, sadness, no sleep etc. Again like Iāve said before, Iām beyond thankful for modern medicine but when Iām feeling the side effects itās more like poison. This treatment tomorrow will be the last one before my scan on the 27th. Based on all the pain Iām having, Iām more nervous than Iāve ever been.
With all the above I do trust Godās plan and know he is with me through all of thisā¦.but Iām human, cancer is evil and Iām not done living.
This past week which I call my good week was good! Sometimes I try to cram so much into those days I wear myself out lol.
Lastly I want to express how blessed I am to live in such a wonderful town, go to an amazing church, have a loving family and supportive friendsšthereās not a day that goes by that I donāt think about how blessed I am! I saw so many of you around town this week and got lots of hugs
šĀ my illness has taken away a lot from me but has given the reason to make the most of your days because we are on borrowed time. This week I took a country drive and opened the sunroof to feel the sun on my face. I took in several deep breathes and felt thankful to be alive. I also tried to slow down and create memorable moments due to one of my great fears is they wonāt remember me and how much I loved them
šĀ I donāt want to be remembered for having cancer.
Alright I could go on and on so I will zip it!! Lol
Thanks as always for your continued support!
Love alwaysĀ xoxo
Jessica
šĀ Its been a couple weeks since Iāve chatted with you so thought I would stop in for a recap of the past 2 weeks.Well the last two weeks have been rough. Our community lost a very wonderful person. She was a wonderful, strong, loving friend of mine. She was my rock through this cancer journey as she too was battling this beast. When we would talk and have our breakfast dates, it was so refreshing talking to someone in a very similar situation. We both just totally understood all the crazy thoughts and emotions that go through someoneās mind when facing a death sentence. I miss her terribly. Please if you could say an extra prayer for her beautiful family and friends
šĀ she will never be forgotten!Tonight is āchemo eveā and usually thatās means anxiety, sadness, no sleep etc. Again like Iāve said before, Iām beyond thankful for modern medicine but when Iām feeling the side effects itās more like poison. This treatment tomorrow will be the last one before my scan on the 27th. Based on all the pain Iām having, Iām more nervous than Iāve ever been.
With all the above I do trust Godās plan and know he is with me through all of thisā¦.but Iām human, cancer is evil and Iām not done living.
This past week which I call my good week was good! Sometimes I try to cram so much into those days I wear myself out lol.
Lastly I want to express how blessed I am to live in such a wonderful town, go to an amazing church, have a loving family and supportive friends
šthereās not a day that goes by that I donāt think about how blessed I am! I saw so many of you around town this week and got lots of hugsšĀ my illness has taken away a lot from me but has given the reason to make the most of your days because we are on borrowed time. This week I took a country drive and opened the sunroof to feel the sun on my face. I took in several deep breathes and felt thankful to be alive. I also tried to slow down and create memorable moments due to one of my great fears is they wonāt remember me and how much I loved themšĀ I donāt want to be remembered for having cancer.Alright I could go on and on so I will zip it!! Lol
Thanks as always for your continued support!
Love alwaysĀ xoxo
Jessica