Good evening and Happy New Year! I just had my 3rd treatment with this cocktail except this time no pump I have the pill form! I’m so thankful for this because being hooked to a pump was driving me a tad crazy. So far I’ve been feeling pretty good after treatment..the previous treatments had me down for days…last treatment they put me on steroids and I felt well until I was taken off the steroids and then I was ill…It caught me off guard as it was like a delayed sickness:( so this time he is keeping me on the steroids and extra 2 days…4 days total. Steroids themselves have their own side effects, but I guess it’s better than being super ill. ❤❤❤❤
So we had a wonderful holiday and I also gained a beautiful baby niece!! With all this happiness I tend to feel sad. Sad for friends I’ve lost in 2017 that aren’t here, sad at the thought this could be my last holiday, just all the typical emotions that I’m sure some of you have or have had when faced with a terminal illness or a hardship or loss of a loved one…I foot on earth and one foot in heaven. Like I always say I trust God and what is meant to happen will happen. I am at peace and I am hopeful. I feel that God gave me this and though I would love to hide and pretend this isn’t real, he has given this to me to help someone in some way and that’s why I choose to share all of this with you! As always thankyou all for thoughts and prayers, love and support!! It means the absolute world to me!!

Love always xoxo
Jessica