Hello♡ popping in with an update and answers to frequently asked questions lol….
This may end up being long so just a warning😉 Alright first with the update: My last treatment was last Monday. It was a reduced infusion by 20%. I came home feeling like I may have a better outcome as far as side effects but I was wrong. I actually was very very ill to the point I felt like I may need to go to the hospital but wasn’t sure I would even make it… thankfully I managed to forge through and recover at home. When I say ill I mean so nauseas I couldn’t speak with out gagging, violently vomiting, stomach cramps and body aches. Such a sensitivity to taste I could taste dirt in bottled water and couldn’t stand the smell of my own skin..its hard to describe but it’s like my mouth, nose and skin had a sterile/metal/bandade taste or smell. That lasted off and on..more on for around 5 days. Then the weekend came and I was so exhausted but suffered really bad insomnia. So…while that was all happening my husband juggled parenting, working and being my personal caregiver..(he is AMAZING) Oh and did I mention it was back to school for my kiddos… Now on to more positive!!! Starting yesterday I’m on the mend and feeling really good!! My hair is coming out like never before and making a mess. It’s on me, on my kids, my hubby, my car…..EVERYWHERE I’m leaving a hair trail lol so watch out if you get too close, you may leave with a token of my hair.. So I’m supposed to get chemo this Monday but with this eclipse madness and the up coming PROM I’m going to need to reschedule because I want to feel my absolute best so I can feel good at the fundraiser and have a great time with you all❤❤
Okay FAQ’s:
1-Are you still able to work?..Unfortunately not anymore. since starting my new chemo regimen, I had to make a tough decision to focus on my health and family. Hopefully I will be back at it soon!!
2-Do you still get an income from owning the salon? I have to laugh at this…the word still.. I’ve never made a dollar from the salon. So nope😉 I made my income doing what I love being a hairstylist behind the chair!(Love and miss all you hair peeps)
3)How do you feel about sharing your journey? Well honestly at first I was very reluctant. If you know me I’m an open book but I don’t like attention of any fashion. So the part of being “Jessica with cancer” is still hard to swallow but I hope sharing my journey will help someone, bring awareness,and it has become kind of a journal thing for me and to voice these racing thoughts in my head.
4- How do you feel about all the support? Well I can’t put into words the initial shock of everyone who has personally reached out to me and the amount of generosity is mind blowing! I’m just your everyday girl and I first I had a very hard time accepting all of it. I didn’t feel that I deserved it. I’m so beyond grateful but I still have trouble sometimes believing this is all real. All I can say is there are some pretty awesome loving people in the world❤
5- Are you mad at God? You know what I have to be honest. I’ve had conversations with God when I was very angry that he allowed me to build this beautiful life, only to take me away. Why let my famiky and freinds see me suffer. I had it out with him and like a switch I felt peace in knowing that why not me…and I’m thankful it is me instead of someone else. I have to remain faithful this is all part of something bigger. But yes I’m human I get upset, but I have to keep going!
6-Do your kids know? Okay so we had held out and just told the kids mommy is sick in her tummy. A couple weeks ago I had to make a swift trip to the ER and I had a conversation with a wonderful nurse who unfortunately we both have had our life changed by cancer. I asked her advice about this topic and she thought that maybe giving my illness a name it may be less scary than a mystery illness..it made sense and I went home that evening and told my kids the dreadful truth. (Without the negative parts)

Okay I bet that’s all you wanna know for now so I will stop!! I would do a video update like some of my brave friends do but I’m not that secure lol
I want to Thank you all for everything!! The kind and thoughtful messages on my phone, in the mail, on here are so appreciated! To the people who got me through these past 2 weeks when I didn’t think I was going to…Thank you! (You know who you are) To the mystery person who paid Brenna’s book rental….thank you! Geesh I need to stop and keep going on another night!! Lol I’m so blessed! I hope to see you at the Adult Prom!!!! I’m so excited 😍😍😍

Goodnight xoxo
Jessica