Hello friends  I’m updating you tonight feeling very sad, worried and defeated… As some of you know, I had to get a scan yesterday that was ordered by my doctor due to my blood work (tumor markers) being elevated. To my disappointment my scan confirmed my elevated markers. I heard the words a cancer patient never wants to hear “your cancer has progressed”. Basically to sum it up all of my tumors have grown and I have additional growths in my lungs. So I have 3 tumors on my liver, 2 lymph nodes, 1 tumor in my pelvis and several in my lungs. I’ve been battling this for a year with several different treatments and the cancer is refusing to go away. I met with my doctor and she thinks it’s best to go back to IU and try to get into a clinical trial. So my treatment has stopped for the moment and I should find out tomorrow when I meet with my IU doctor. I have to say I tried to prepare for bad news but it didn’t prepare me. I honestly feel like I’m starting all over with my treatment unknown in an unfamiliar care center. I honestly can’t put what’s going on in my brain into words… I’m trying to remain hopeful all the while I keep getting flashbacks of this past year and what my body has been through and what my family and friends have been through.