Its been a year (5/8/17)
So as of May 6th it’s been a year since I was diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer. I remember that weekend like it was yesterday. After day 3 of non stop crying, I wondered if I would eventually run out of tears…see this weekend last year happened to be Mothers Day and the birthday of the most precious gift that made me a mother 
There are NO words to describe what was going on in my head…..Fast forward to today..a TON of things good and bad have happened in that year. Today I still have stage IV colon cancer.
I had trouble trying to find words to put this update together..At first all of my thoughts typed out didn’t sound like me…here lately I haven’t been me. I’m on a new treatment I’ve had 2 infusions of so far and it has caused a rash on my face, scalp and body that feels like a burn with needles..The frustration is hard to keep in…Im in a lot of pain and don’t wanna go out of the house.. that’s not me..
So here I am in my seclusion of my bedroom praying to God to help me over come this mental struggle that has set in…Just like a year ago, my (baby) Lauren is going to be 12!! I’m alive and well (for the most part) a year later…some with my diagnosis don’t make it that long…
So I’ve made a choice I can’t let myself get down like this..Tomorrow is a new day and what better way than to celebrate my sweet Lauren!!
Thanks as always to all of you that follow my journey, pray for me and my family and help with meals and such! It’s soooo appreciated
I have a doctor’s appt in the morning, hopefully she has some miracle ideas to help me with this pesky rash!! I will update y’all if anything changes!
Good night and God bless
Xoxo
Jessica